"I feel a little lost, hollow on the inside and feigning on the outside. It is especially difficult when everything is choked up. A small part of me always believed that He is watching over me but sometimes, I just feel forsaken and forgotten. I had not lost my faith, just a little shaken.
Sometimes, the ties between humans are just bizzare. They are so prone towards guarding themselves that in the process of protecting, there seem to be a trail of hurt and tears left somewhere.
I am but, mere human, why cant anyone just open their eyes and see that I am so vulnerable. I may behave tough,nonchalant but I am still human, I am made of flesh, not stones.It always seem like a burden to pour my inner most thoughts to other people and most often I always find myself retreating to my safezone hoping that someway or another, every broken part of me can be healed and restored. I just want to be remembered, just want to live a life that leaves an impact on the people most important to me.
I always think, who will miss me if one day I am gone. Will this make any difference to their lives or are they going to move on like nothing significant had happened. I am just so selfish, always wanting to take for possession the things/people I want close to me but this is also because I am so fearful, so afraid of being abandoned.
I hate this part of me and everytime when something invoke this specific trait of which I detest,I deny. Deny that I am ever like that and let my smile lead the day.

The only part that kills are the memories, ironically, craves to be forgotten and to be thrown into the abyss of this crazy mind."