I haven't been updating this space for the longest of time. And I realise I always begin with similar phrases. This time round, I'm typing at a much slower pace because I'm only left with one capable hand. My left arm's injured. Well, elbow to be exact. So in the end, I didn't get to participate in NUS Rag dance, the dance which I've been training for the past 2 months. My first injury ever. Having my left arm wrapped up in a cast now and I feel so.......paralyzed. For the past 2 weeks I've received so much help from so many people and I'm super thankful for all the help they've given, even for a simple "take care". I can't express the amount of gratitude I have in words, but really, I'm super appreciative. It's times like this that I know who are the ones who are worth keeping.

By the way, school has already started. I can't believe I'm already a university student. I still remember so vividly the secondary school days, playing so much with my babes in sec 1, mugging so hard in sec 4, and now it's already been years since those happy moments. There I go again, becoming so emotional about it once again. May university life be ever smooth sailing.

There are some things that I should've put down a long time ago but they still haunt me. In such an unfamiliar environment, I find myself still treating my comfort zone as you. The past 2 weeks have been such a pain to get through. Easy things like putting or removing clothes, eating, bathing, carrying books have been such a chore. Finding out about something which I wasn't supposed to know made everything worse. That night all my thoughts were drawn to you. I was lost in the midst of happiness all the while and that night, all the bubbles got burst right away. It reminded me of everything we went through, all the pain I've been through. I realized how vulnerable I've become again and it scares me. Left me with so many questions, like perhaps I shouldn't have broken down that wall, shouldn't be trying so hard.