Thoughts surrounding me tonight once again.
I miss the sound of your voice.
Don't know why i miss it so terribly tonight.
How many nights have I gone through being like this?
It sure does feel better saying it all out here though.
Feels like at least there's someone out there listening to my deepest secrets which I'm afraid to say to my peers.
Or maybe I'm just rambling to myself in the middle of these nights, maybe there's no one on the receiving end.
I find myself so pitiful. Such a sorrowful state.
I'm no longer myself anymore.
I no longer bother about whether or not the people around me are upset or happy.
I no longer bother to spare some listening ears.
I no longer bother helping people solve their problems.
I feel like I'm trapped in my own cave.
I feel so damn selfish, it's so unlike me.
I used to give everything to everyone.
Now I'd rather save everything for my own.
I don't know how to break free.
"Those who are heartless, once cared too much."

We weren’t good for each other.
I know this.
But I still wish, and dream, about how we could have made it.

This is just a fall.
Please get back up stronger.