Since I can't fall asleep yet I shall do up a new post on year 2011 since it's about to come to an end. Pardon my bad memory though.

This year has been like such a roller-coaster ride for me. Most of you should know by now, that I lost the person who meant the world to me. And with it, came a lot of dramas here and there, mainly due to myself because I still choose to believe that things will turn out differently. But for now, I guess I lost all hopes. I really deserve so much better.

But of course, I'm glad that I'm lucky enough to gain someone special from my loss. I realized there are actually people who are willing to be there for me. All the dramas just sort of blindfolded me. '生在福中不知福' that applies to me pretty well.

After the loss, I gained alot of friends from everywhere and started meeting up with people whom I've lost contact with since long ago. Mandy's my biggest gain of all, my new found soulmate.

Started picking up all the different vices too. Picked up drinking over the June holidays, started to club more often, tried sheesha. But no, I'll never ever touch the cigarettes. These definitely made me a changed person. People have been telling me and I've noted it myself too. Just for this period till I finally become independent I guess.

This year's also the Alevel year. Been up to a lot of studying, if I didn't remember wrongly haha. Started mugging at the place where I mugged for the O's again: khatib macs. Met many people from there. It was really a joy to see and mug together with all of them, the feeling that you're not alone in the battle.

Broke down during the A's period. It's the first time ever I cried over studies. Felt so damn hopeless after GP and Maths that I wanted to just give everything up.

Got into a huge fight with mum. Almost wanted to leave home and to stay at laopong's house. Least things are fine now, thanks to my kind neighbours.

Got closer with the people from my CCA as well as my classmates. The shuffling in the darkroom and the wobble, haha internal jokes. Really such a joy to be around the photog people but sadly, we ain't as close again.

Ah this is getting boring because I can't really recall what happened in the earlier part of the year. Shall just make do with this. The next post shall be new year's resolution then. This is late but, merry christmas xoxo.