“I tried so hard. You know that, right? I tried harder than you could ever imagine. Now, here I am, trying my best just to forget everything. Every piece of you. The way you smell, the feel of your skin. I can still feel you, I think I always will.”

I really don't care what others think of me. All I know is I don't have the ability to lie to myself. What makes me happy, I know it the best. And I'm so fucking tired of myself. I really need an escape from all these fucked up bullshit.

Nobody would ever understand how it's like to be in my position. Even though I have everything one could ever want, there will always be this one person I would give up everything for. It's not about not treasuring what I have now, and it's not because I'm used to him, it's because he's really all that matters. There's only one word to describe myself- Fool.