I'm here again because I'm so tired of studying. Heh, an excuse for not studying for physics actually. Idk why I detest that subject so much... D: Pressure's been building up for the past few days, especially after we received our midyears results. I've disappointed so many teachers, well I guess all of them, and most of all myself. Shouldn't have done so well for promos last year, all these expectations are suffocating me...... I don't even know how I did it then ._. A's is so different from the O's seriously, haha quite stupid for me to only notice it now. I lost the drive I used to have back in secondary 4 - I could sit in front of my textbooks and TYSes for hourssssssss everyday and practice non-stop! It's insane. But just like every other thing, the only thing I have to do now is stop procrastinating, stop diverting my attention to everything else except A's (which apparently I can't) and continue to work harder.

On a side note, I noticed quite a lot of empty souls around lately, everyone's been falling out of you-know-what (sorry but I really hate that word now). It's really sad to see people ending up in such a sorrow state and I can't seem to help. Idk if the stories I heard were true, or for some cases I know of the stories personally. I feel for these people, knowing that they are suffering deep down but just look at them, their faces are filled with smiles. Contradictory. Masks. Ok this is depressing, shall close the issue. But I hope these people will finally make it through, or at least have their wishes fulfilled, because such awesome people have the rights to be happy wholeheartedly.

God bless them.