I didn't want to lose faith, but it seems like no matter what I do, this hole will never be filled. Gathered all my courage and strength to tell you, but all I got was silence. It took me so long, just to think of how to phrase these words in my head, and so much, so much courage. I thought after all these years, I would still mean something. Nobody really knows, the struggles I go through, because I keep mum. Even looking at my own body is a torture, I get reminded of things I don't want to remember.

Stay strong.