I never thought things are so bad. I feel so very guilty.
Seeing things becoming from bad to worse, I honestly want to offer help, any help that I could. I'm part of the family, it's something I should do. I'm already considered an adult, things which I weren't able to do, I'm able to now. But why is everybody telling to drop this thinking? You know how helpless I feel when I see you guys suffering and not being able to do anything about it?
I want to mean something to the family, not be a spoilt kid. I want to show you guys that I am able to lend a helping hand in point of a crisis. I really want to very badly....

Urgh I need a pair of listening ears. ):