Came across this space and realize how it turned from my daily ranting avenue to just another neglected space. Well, I'm going to try to put down in words the things I remember happening over the past few months, because after taking one mod (Business communications, if you're wondering), I begun to understand the importance of blogs/diaries as a form of reflection tool. It always makes me feel so much better whenever I type things out, and perhaps that was what kept me going the past few years. But I guess I lost it when other social media platforms came along... (I've been terribly active on Twitter and Instagram - not surprising due to my love for photography actually).
So, I'll try to recall the things that happened over the semester.
1) I've moved out of hall.
Not sure if I mentioned this before in previous posts (I'm too lazy to read them), but yup, the reason I moved out was because I felt even more lonely there even though I was surrounded by friends all around me. Hall let me learn the true meaning of home, and how blessed I've been to have someone cook me meals everyday, and to tidy up my room, my clothes everyday. I really appreciate my mum a lot now. Other than that, I've been treating another place like hall ever since I moved out of KR. Since its way more convenient to travel to school and also since everyday of the week my lessons start at either 8am/9am (damn the core mods schedule), I've decided to stay over at T's place for the weekdays. To those who thinks that it's inappropriate to "move in" when we're barely even together for long, well I don't really bother explaining my rational behind the decision. To sum it up, I honestly feel that this managed to bring us way closer emotionally and I'm grateful that it did. Our relationship didn't start off well because of both of our old memories and fears, but now I can safely say that everything is WAY better. And that's something to be happy for :)
2) I've made new and more compatible friends in Biz School, and managed to get closer to those I already knew - by name but not personality.
I'm grateful that I had Francine, Anton and Ben through all the mods with me this semester. I don't feel as alone anymore in biz school because of their presence. It's awesome how we took part in a photo competition and the 'Ben kissing Anton' pose became a trademark for future photos now. It's also awesome how Ben drove us out to Holland V for lunch and to Buona Vista for the Ben&Jerry's free cone day. As for new friends, I'm utterly grateful for my Marketing group members. We're really all of 'the same kind', if you must describe. They have been such great members and people to be with. The jokes we share with each other at 3am in the mornings while rushing through our project reports and PowerPoint slides are simply priceless. On the last sectionals day I was quite bitter because it would mean the last lesson with them. Till we meet again? Next semester hopefully!!
3) I became a healthier person.
Based on my own judgement that is. I feel so much healthier this semester as compared to last semester because of all the irregular sleep from hall. This sem was filled with regular sleep (everyday sleep at 11pm-1am, wake at 6-7am), jogging or swimming sessions once in awhile and no clubbing at all. I still drink though, but it's way lesser and not as frequent anymore. So in overall, I'm still doing great health-wise!
Well like I said, I've been spending a lot of time with him. Yet, I've been spending spare time with closer friends as well. And that makes me feel so much healthier than in the previous rship with D. I'm still not absolutely over D yet, but I'm working on it.... Yes it's possible to love two people at the same time. You'll understand someday. There have been quite a bit of major downs with Tim though. We almost ended things when I couldn't cut my habit of not voicing out my thoughts, and when I found out secrets that he's been hiding. I don't understand why people always take me for granted.. Am I such a pushover? Perhaps that's the bad thing about treating someone too well...
So anw, he'll be off to UK for 3 years of studies very soon. I'm not sure if things will work out, but I hope it does. At least if it does, it gives me greater faith for love. All the faith were destroyed by all the truths that were uncovered. Having ended the semester, it just serves to remind me that September will be reaching very soon. Sigh. To keep the end in mind.